Pressure

I'm putting way too much pressure on myself. I expect a great number on the scale every Saturday. I want to control what my body does and when it does it. Realistically weight loss is not linear. There are hills and valleys. I'm trying to be ok with that. So I will post a update when I hit my 30 mark and every 10 lbs after. I'm oh so close but I need to trust that my body will do what it needs in order to be healthy. If it takes longer than the 6.5 months I've planned to reach my goal so be it. I'm doing everything right so I'll get there and I know it.

I asked Jonathan to do this waking hypnosis thing on me call NLP. I wanted to be disgusted with sugar and sweet treats. After he did it it didn't start working for like a week and a half. After that I couldn't stomach sugar for anything. I can't stand to even smell it. Ewwwwwwww!!! That was 2.5 months ago. So last week Jonathan was out of town for 2 days and it was a stressful time for me. My instinct before hypnosis was to stress eat something sweet. I really considered doing it but it only lasted like 10 minutes. I couldn't bring myself to do it. I really feel like sweets are out of my life forever and I'm happy about it.